down and out
I had been down and out for some time now. Didn’t realize it until i had a mini breakdown and got put on some medication. WOW was i hermit for the past year. I realized i had no interest in anything, but i didn’t think it was such a big deal. All i did was go to work and come home and sleep. Everything suffered and in just a month of new medicine i have gotten so much accomplished!...
People like to say my job took over my life, or work is my life. I don’t want my life to be my job. I want my lifes work to be something completely different from what it is now. Right now I have no “lifes work” all I have is a job. Work that I must do to survive. I want to so more than just survive. I need to do more. I need to create. Something. Art. Stories. Crafts. Garden....
Wow. Haven’t been here in 3 months. Sad thing is, nothing new or exciting has been happening. Same old routine…working too much and not spending enough time with my family. Our ski vacation was cancelled (wasn’t practical to have Jer take time off when he just started a new job). I sorta just want to go to the local mountains…if it would only SNOW!! I do love San Diego...
ewilcox: Sometimes it takes every bone in your body not to respond to a “friend’s” Facebook status saying “JOE PA IS AN ABSOLUTELY AMAZING GUY, YOU’RE MY HERO, LOVE YA TILL THE END” with the comment “Amazing guys don’t enable the abuse and rape of children.” I still haven’t fully decided NOT to respond with that, actually.
I do alot of this from my phone so PLEASE EXCUSE the typos. I try to catch them as I go, but sometimes i will be on a roll and forget to look up, then its too late. To try and go back and edit from my phone is just too time consuming and tedious. So, there they will stay, until I decide to get off my lazy ass and sign into my comuter & go back and correct them.
I used to love my job. I went to college to be a Special Ed teacher but got discouraged by all the politics in the public sector and quit. Then, when I had to get a job to support myself & my family, I went back to what I knew, dispatching, and back to the company I had worked for 15 years prior. At first, with the company under new management, I decided I was going to do the best I could and...
An Invite To See His Ex
So, Jeremys sister, Tanya sent him a text inviting him to go to a bonfire Thursday to see Candice, his ex gf, who is in town. Oh, yeah, if you want to bring Karyn (your WIFE) and Bree (your Daughter), they can come too. (I aded the WIFE & DAUGHTER thing, she just said, Karyn & Bree) Really?! I just don’t know how I feel about this. Jeremy is such an honest person though, he of...
This is gonna be totally boring so don’t even waste your time reading it. I just felt like writing about my day today, so here goes… I woke up grumpy, with a terrible sinus headache. It was sorta early for me, and for a Sunday, 8:30am. Jeremy said he was gonna cook breakfast so I got up so we could eat together. Having meals together is VERY important to him. Since I was grumpy, I was sorta mad...
Therapy Session "Viewpoints"
Funny how people can be raised in the same household yet have such different stories to tell. If you asked my sister how she was raised or what it was like for her, she will say that I was the one that made her life miserable. Apparently, I tortured her growing up, picked on her relentlessly, and continue to treat her poorly. The way I remember it, my mother was extremely abusive and took the...
I have tried this tumblr thing once before, but from my phone. It was very limited. I think, as with othere things, i shoud start on the full site first until i learn how to navigate the site, then maybe i will upload the mobile app & try the phone thing again. I cant even figure out how to find people i know yet!!!! Geez. Im already frustrated, so i think I will just go to bed and come back...